Grateful and Fortunate

Merry Christmas to you all, and to those of you that don't celebrate this day, Happy Holidays.

Regardless of the day however, I am feeling very grateful that I am married to a kind gentle man, I have two wonderful kids, and we all live in a great house. I feel very fortunate to have been able to keep living in this house, along with the aforementioned's help. We pooled our energy and gave our home a sprucing up so that the appraisal was enough to refinance (we had run into some financial difficulties and until very recently, it looked like we'd have to sell our home!)

We didn't have much to spend on gifts, but we had little things for each other and we had a very enjoyable day together and that felt great! During dinner, another thing that we weren't sure we could afford to do, we all let each other know how we felt and the food seemed to taste extra good this year.

There are some very generous people out there; we received some money to pay for the broken window (with the weather getting colder we really needed that) and we also received, not one, but TWO hampers of food! Believe me, whenever any of this family gets a chance to help someone out, we will!

I don't know how many of you are familiar with the movie "Pay It Forward", but that is what our family is doing.

Anyways, I hope that you all enjoy the coming of the new year and that your dreams come true for 2008!

While I was driving home from work today, I suddenly got a strange feeling, like I was in a fishbowl and everyone could see me. I looked around but didn't see anyone even looking my way so I made note of the time, 4:24pm, and didn't think about it again until just now. For the past almost 2 hours I have been "standing guard" in my house. Earlier this evening, I had settled onto the couch so my daughter could cuddle with me before going to bed. We both fell asleep and at about 10:40pm I was awakened by a crash which I thought was something that had fallen off a table or countertop and broken (luckily, my daughter slept on). After checking around, I discovered that 2 of my front windows of my house had been broken (I discovered later that rocks had been thrown at them).
Wouldn't it have been great if I had been able to pinpoint that awful feeling I had earlier in the afternoon and possibly prevent this event, or at least to have been "ready" for it and been able to identify the culprits?!!! We humans think we're so superior, yet we only use about one tenth of our brain - what a waste of the other ninety percent!!!!!

What a Rush!!!!!

I had the most exhilarating experience this afternoon that I want to share.
I was standing outside in my backyard, and it was a bit breezy so the branches of the huge trees around me were swaying slightly. I took a deep breath and quietly said thanks out loud to "whoever" was listening (and I am not referring to the drunk passed out in the walkway next to our yard, lol). We've had some financial difficulties in the past year or so and have tried for the past 6 months to get refinancing without success; we found out a couple of days ago that we have been approved so we can stay in our home and don't have to move our children or our animals.
As the last word left my mouth, all the trees began waving wildly with the wind that had just picked up and it was truly an experience to remember!!!!! I felt my whole being filled with what can only be described as content joyful peace - it was overwhelming, in a good way. I haven't felt like that in a very long time, if ever.

I got the feeling that it wasn't a coincidence, but a message telling me that everything was going to be alright from now on. It feels great. And every chance I get, I am going to do my best to "pay it forward" - I love that concept. This world would be an even better place if we all did.

I'm hoping all you in Bloggerville have honoured this day with remembering those that fought for our freedom and that each and every one of you do your best to do your best each and every day!

Signing off for now, but will return soon. Keep happy.

Had to share these.....

The 11:11:11 Energies
A Photo Essay in Crystals
Images by Jan Custers
Text by Celia Fenn

At this time of Radiant Cosmic Energies, we are privileged to be able to share in Jan's interpretation of the energies through his beautiful Crystal Images.
Each of these images holds the power of the Cosmic 11:11:11 energies, and can be used as a focus of meditation on the energies.


The Crystal Energiescarrying the key to Christ Consciousnessflow through the Cosmic Gate11:11:11
Gold and SilverIndigo and Orange and PinkThe Divine Feminineand the Divine MasculineUnite in Sacred UnionCreating patterns and pathsfor the New Earth
The Two that are OneThe One that is TwoHear the Celestial MusicHarmonyInfinity.....

Breathe in the Sacred Energiesallow them to flow through youfeel the power of AlignmentAs your Higher and Lower beings mergein one Perfect UnionPEACELOVEJOYRADIANCE
It is time to Sing and Danceand harmonize with the LOVEof All That Is!

© 2004-5 Jan Custers,Celia Fenn and the Starchild Ascension Group This work is licensed under a Creative




When I first looked at these pictures, I got a shiver down my spine. It's almost the same feeling I get when I spend time by myself out in my backyard with all the huge trees around the edge of the property. It's not something that can be described in words very well by anyone that I know - you'd have to experience it to really understand it; hopefully one or two of these touches somebody that sees them cuz it's quite the experience! If you feel it, you'll know exactly what I'm trying to say; I'm curious so let me know, either way, okay?

Any Advice Anyone?

I have a bit of a dilemma.
During the last month or two, my husband has been attending church (Christian) with which I do not have a problem. He finds it to be an outlet for some of his frustrations and he feels better about himself which I think is great. The problem is, he wants me to go as well. Now he has spoken of those that attend church and just give "lip service" and I feel that I wouldn't be sincere in going. I explained to him that there are those that like to pray with others, and those that prefer to do their worshipping in private. Well, I'm one of the ones that prefers privacy and I'm comfortable with that. His bigger concern is our young child who has been to a couple of services and attended a couple of Sunday school classes but is not all that interested in church and does not attend anymore. My husband feels that if I were to attend, then maybe our child would as well. I told him that there's no guarantee with that and I would be fine with our child deciding when they're older and can understand more about what going to church is all about. Our older child (midteens) isn't interested in church at all but does not dis the church or my husband.
What do you think? Is this one of those times that I should show my support by attending even though I feel my time would be better spent doing other things? I ask him about church and prayer meetings he attends and we talk about it a bit, but he also knows that I'm not nearly as interested as he is. Am I being selfish?

?????

You know, I'd like to be able to put in an interesting post that others could read and say "Wow, I really like where she's coming from and how she thinks" but I sometimes don't feel I really have anything to say that would be of much interest to anyone else. I go through the turmoil known as life like everyone else without so much as a how to do from many and hope that somewhere along the way someone will take an interest in my ramblings. I don't know - I'm estranged from my siblings, and my mother, their choice, not mine, so I don't know if it's me, or I'm just the odd duck in the bunch; the "sane" one. Could it be that having grown up in a setting of self destruction that I don't know when I've encountered someone that is actually a positive influence? Would I know a good thing if it bit me on the ass, so to speak? Do any of you relate to my preconceived notions of worthlessness? I don't even know if I could actually handle someone answering any of these questions because, based on my past, I don't know that I could trust anyone.
Does any of this make sense? When would I know if it did?

I'm Getting There

Having been awhile since I've blogged, I'm not very good at this yet so please bear with me. I do sometimes find it difficult to open up even in an anonymous world as Blogsville. I feel I've worked on alot of personal stuff over the years and I've actually come along way, but, like everyone else, I still have issues. One of my main issues is trust. Having grown up in a household that I was constantly told that I was stupid and that my hair looked like drapes in a funeral parlor, I didn't have alot of self-confidence. I'm much more confident these days, but those ghosts still haunt me from time to time (and not in a good haunting way like a ghost from centuries past). I'm okay with the way I look, and I feel I'm fairly intelligent (apparently my IQ is 125, although some people say not to read too much into that), and I have a generous, kind spirit, for the most part (those that know me, feel free to correct me - really!), so getting to know me wouldn't be the worst thing in the world that anyone could do.
I look forward to getting to know some of you fellow bloggers as well.

Happy Blogging!

We're All Human, Imperfect, But Still, Human

After reading a blog that was recommended to me, it got me thinking about a few things that I haven't thought about for almost a year now.
This person's dad presently has cancer and has had surgery as well; got me thinking about my mom. This person seems to be confused as to what they are feeling and I can totally relate to the frustration and helplessness that they may be feeling. I used to be more afraid of what I wouldn't feel as opposed to what I would feel at my mom's funeral. There might be the expected tears with emotions running high, but what if there wasn't any of that? Would that make me a bad person? A person with very limited emotional expression?
No, I don't think so. I've come to accept my mom for who she is (as distant as she is from me emotionally) and as long as I know in my heart that I have done all that I can to strengthen our relationship, I don't feel that I should expect any more from myself. How much more can one do than their best? We are all human beings with imperfections and socially frowned upon faults but I strongly believe that each one of us is here for a reason. We might not see why for many years or maybe never at all, but we all have the capacity to love, share and teach and none of those attributes should ever be kept under wraps. As humans we need each other. And even though we are the ones that have made up the "rules", what we feel, we feel, and that's never wrong.
So, this person whose blog I recently read, I hope that you get a chance to read this - please let me know if any of it helps, okay? (I tried to enter a comment on your blog, but it wouldn't let me.)
Peace and tranquility to all.